Being Desired vs Being Fully Met
Read this slowly.
Notice how your body responds.
Many women are deeply desired.
Men are drawn to them.
They're pursued.
They're wanted.
And still, something feels
different underneath.
Not dramatic.
Just... there.
1.
When someone is interested in you
and you begin to get to know each other,
notice what's present in your body.
Quietly, in the background.
Not the story.
Not the meaning.
The sensation.
Maybe a slight tightness in the chest.
A subtle holding in the belly.
A heaviness in the shoulders.
No need to fix it.
No need to name it.
No need to trace where it came from.
Just noticing.
Interesting,
there's tightness.
Not loud.
But there.
2.
Now imagine this.
You're resting.
Not performing.
Not offering anything.
And someone wants to give
attention, care, devotion,
simply for your being.
Notice what happens in your body.
Is there ease?
Or a quiet pressure?
A subtle sense of obligation?
A feeling of debt?
A sense of being held too tightly,
almost like a cage?
Maybe there's a moment of questioning:
Am I worthy enough to receive all this?
Even when the mind
knows better.
Just notice what
shows up in the body.
3.
Imagine intimacy deepening over time.
Layers coming off.
Not all at once.
Naturally.
Parts of you that once stayed hidden
begin to be seen.
How does your body respond to that?
A little shakiness?
A pull to contain yourself?
A subtle resistance?
Again, nothing to fix.
Just noticing.
4.
Underneath everything the mind knows,
there's a quieter voice.
What does your body say about love?
Not what it should say.
What it actually says.
What does it say you need to be?
What does it say you need to do?
What does it say you need to give up?
What does it say you need to
manage,
soften,
hold,
sacrifice?
What does it say is realistic?
What does it say is too much?
What does it say you can't have?
Just listen.
5.
And one last noticing.
What did your body learn
from past relationships?
Not just romantic ones.
All of them.
Notice what remains in the body now.
Not as a problem.
Not as something to
fix, release, or work through.
Just as sensation.
Just as memory.
There may be a tightness.
Heaviness.
Or nothing much at all.
Whatever is here,
let it be seen as it is.